hmmm.

I wish u were here and tell me what to do. Or at least tell me if I'm doing it right. Night. Ilysm. I miss u.

Because I really care.

Me: If something goes wrong, Im sure she'll be crushed.
Dad: Well.. that's life.

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So true. He doesn't need to say much but his words will sure left me thinking for hours. Now I know where I get my "pasrahness" from. Lol.

Toodles!

of things that REALLY matters in life.

stay tuned! (God knows when) *long sigh*

Its today.

Happy birthday ma. The thought of you always make me smile although sad that you are no longer around for me to see. Hmm so happens that I'm hungry right now so I just want to say that, I miss your scrambled egg. Err. Hehe. Ok, goodnight. :)

p/s: I am so happy that God chose me to be your daughter. Oh, remember when you wanted to surprise me but then you posted the picture of the birthday cake you made for me on FB. ha ha

When will we ever get bored of the same old me and the same old you.

Do not be quick to judge. After all, we all strive to become a better person everyday. Nobody really wants to go to _ _ _ _. Hell or jail or whatever four-letter words you choose to fill in the blanks. It's up to you. Don't you get it?

Happy new year.

If only u were here..

Almost two years since your passing. And I can clearly remember everything, every single detail, how and when it happened. 14/1/2012, the day I was supposed to go to a seminar. I shook your hands and it was icy cold. I knew something was not right, but I left anyway, thinking I already made a promise that I'd go. So I went, arrived at where Im supposed to be, and received the most nerve-wrecking call of my life. Rushed back to the hospital, by the time I got there you were not there anymore.. I remember crying so bad to dad, asking why did you have to leave? I haven't spent enough time with you.
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Al-fatihah. I really really miss u ma. There is really nothing I can do apart from praying for you. But if only you were here, I'd tell you what happened in my everyday life, about my first extraction, my first RCT. Because no one would understand my excitement better than you would. The thought of you not being here, during my graduation, or my wedding or when I have my "first" of everything just kills me..

Anyway mum. I'm almost there.. finishing the last few months and requirements of my final year. And after that, who knows what will happen.. I love you. xoxo.

p/s: Im getting used to calling for "Baa?!" instead of "Maa..?!" everytime I come home, apart from calling my cats of course. :(

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.... is when you decided to look beyond the imperfections. Happy holidays!