Things I'll remember for life..because I really really really really miss you.

Relationships:
I remember how u wanted me to be a dentist so bad,to the point that you said " if you don't want to be a dentist,marry one". Of course I chose to be one instead. When I was in a difficult situation, I asked you indirectly about relationships and you said to be with the one who loves you more than you love him.

Religion:
Of course, jangan tinggal sembahyang. You never failed to wake me up every morning for Subuh prayers. Sampai ada one time tu, the elastic thing on my pants lose its elasticity because you really wanted me to get up and pray. :')

Cooking/baking:
You said that our emotions and feelings will affect the things we are making. So today I tried to be happy, and hoped that they'll turn out good.

Shopping:
Dont go shopping on an empty stomach. Sebab nanti semua nak beli. Hehe. I miss going shopping with you. Just me and you. And lunch too.:(

Songs:
When I see you smile, Stand up for cancer. I wanted to cry so bad when you cried listening to those. But I couldn't, I had to be strong for you.

Movies/drama:
Ombak rindu, we watched this together on ur tab at the hospital. And you cried, and I used to not get it , why would anyone cry to a sad movie, it's just a movie,they're actors! But believe me ma, now I am the one crying to a sad movie. I get it now.
All those saturday night dramas we watched together on tv#. Cerita bongak you called them. But some of them were good. Ahh and those indo-drama that we used to watch every evening. You actually looked forward to every single episode of it. But now I cant watch those anymore. Its just not as good as it was.....

I just want to say I'm sorry, it may seemed that I was heartless, but believe me ma, I had to be strong for you. I wanted to be strong for you. You know I love you, I know you do.